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Saturday, December 31, 2005

我原已心如直水也不奢求会有任何的起伏。。为何一再地掀起阵阵涟漪，然后又一波波地把它们压平？

我2005年的岁末与2006的第一秒就这样的在猜忌与失望中度过了。

Actually, this year I went through a lots of unhappyness although there are still happy times..

Hope that every thing is smoother next year and able to spend most of my time happily.

-^o^-

Bee scribbled @ 12:59 PM

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Friday, December 30, 2005

Went through a week of 4 unhappy plus tired days. Few days never got 'strength' to on PC le.

Somehow just not happy & keep touching on 3 web reports, go home late and seeing HC getting more & more well verse in her BIRD-LANGUAGE (鸟话连篇)... details later.

27/12 is the last day of Keli in cc. Till current, still feel ok with her but only get to work with her for less then 2 mth nia. That means all helpdesk's 大便 came back to me and all those admin's 大便 went back to mushroom. Sad... very troubled by so many things..

Don know wat happen to me, cannot sleep at nights, panda eyes getting more & more serious, feel tired all day, 火爆脾气 very often, become super forgetful.. keep forgetting things even those tat can still remember it a second ago. And that stupid report builder, like love to play me out. the moment I see thing all ok, the next moment it went crazy and mess up my thing while changing some other area. That give HC a chance to say I very careless recently. she is not wrong as I to keep producing faulty reports. :(

Saying that, all those problem all due to her also super 猫 lor, like to go into little things like here spacing too big, there too small, here bold there cannot, here more to the left, there more to the right...etc. 烦死了！ she rather spend her time in all this and make me keep changing then checking the spec she give me.

Once she found a formular wrongly written by her in the spec, not saying sorry to make me change but blame me for not able to spot it & tell her!! she say I now is more like a analyst rather then just a programmer cannot simply follow spec but should think & analyse more!!! feel like slapping her and ask her if she is going to give me a analyst's pay.. I don even know wat each column means. I just do according to spec wa. She say more change will come as few other column seem got problem with formular and she need more time to think about them... sian. all this should be cleared while doing spec right? Simply cannot understand la.

As netsphere is moving out and she want to backup all those needed file into a network server thus help her lor.. yesterday DK found that the server full le and guess wat she tell me just now? she say she though got call me to inform DK that we moving files into that server!! NO LOR. She never!! And she say actually I should earlier know that disk is full le.. but the final few PCs' is handle by herself, she got check first ma? Who know she copy till the server full? Server will sms me ah?? just wanting to put the blame on me again.

She called me just now @ 17:48 saying need me to pull some data for her immediately.. can't she call us to do earlier? every time wait till people wanna go home then come & spoilt plans. after done, when to inform her tat put into shared drive le. but she suddenly shouted that "为什么放在那边，不是跟你说了很多次要放在S drive..." I'm really angry this time and sort of shouted back tat I never know got put the things there before.. but she insist and wanna show me where exactlly is that path. THEN she realise that tat stupid path is newly created her herself not long ago and plans to use it in future but have not tell me yet!!! When I ask her "so where U want me to put in future?", she say put in that original path lor as tat new path is for her to put when she have sent-ed the file to user!!??? don understand where her "跟你说了很多次" came from lor...

不可理喻！She never say sorry to me K.

Now she want me to finish her stack of testing for her by wed as she on leave on tue & need to roll on wed le.. knowing that I sure need almost 1 full day to finish those monthly report de, don know how to fulfill her this time.. wait got chance to say me again.. :(

Was very tired by the reports thus don feel like arguing but wanna get away from her/company immediately. Just cannot help to show her supper black black face.. simply show black face & don want to reply a single words lor.

ANGRY & unhappy!!

Bee scribbled @ 9:42 PM

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

The photo above nice nice ma? That is our christmas gift.

Quite fun actually.

Gone for tat free make over session @ "nBYn"--> Naughty By Nature. Spend more then 2 hours there. Altogether we got 50 shots but only able to get back 2 tat the image-consultant thinks is the best shot. Actually there are still quite a number of shots tat I love; especially those of my mom de, but cannot leh. Need to pay at least $558 for the cheapest package then can get the rest. :(

First time able to ware 晚礼服 wo. So happy, need to pull here pull there while moving around..walking like princess as in cartoon shows and never thought that I got the chance to fit into those kind of dress in my life lor.. the dress is from tat studio and quite loss de. cannot bent too low else will 走光 de. ;p

Originaly, they say as I'm still single, can only go myself but when reach there, they call my mom to make up also. 赚到 lo!! At first, we are given japanese's 和服 but I not able to fit in.. sad wo. always dreams to take photo in tat outfit. If I'm 'flatter', can fit in le.. That is why I took that 晚礼服 lor.

First time see my mom so nice in photo too. Some of the shots make my mom look so young like japanese girl. he hee.. me? those nice nice de all like little girls.. he heee.. 有够臭美 de!!! haaa!!!

Actually don know how they think de. Want us to pay big lump sum for 'life-time' package that included all taken photos then every year a free shot as long as they still around. As don wish to spend so much on photos, make request to pay for the rest photos since already taken and ready in the PC anyway. Just a drag away only lor. But they simply don allow not even want to give a price for an 'one-time' plan.

Their boss la-gi good. Once I say for sure I'm not going to take their 'life-time' package, his face just turn black then walk away wo. They rather delete all the shots before your eye when U refuse..

So heart pain!!! They rather don earn a single cents then what-ever-amount lor.. even if they say $10 per photo, I'll still take a number of them de.. Heart super pain that all those 难得漂亮 kind of photos just gone like this!!!

Wat ever, both my mom & myself win something this christmas le, we got to make-up till nice nice & got back 2 shots of photos while they just wanna busy for nothing lor.

-^o*-

Oh ya oh ya!!! Almost forgotten that I super ma-loo also today leh. After the session they actually got help to remove make-up de ma. But hor somehow my eye still not clean enough & I no check that I got a pair of panda eye!!! my mom did not mention anything also wo. To her, I always pretty de. And we walk & shop around the whole china-town and people-park!!! at first I realise today very funny, caught a number of eyes looking into me & I though I somehow look more pretty today. Till I reach home &amp; my nephiew & niece laugh at me then I know!! scream like hell!! super ma-loo!! those people must be thinking howcome this girl like this one..

~ faint!! ~

Bee scribbled @ 8:46 PM

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Saturday, December 24, 2005

~ Boring ~

Nothing to do and no good TV programs.. Wat a boring life.

Initially, jo ever suggested to have some programs today de but somehow gone with the wind le.

Then Ah bao was keep jio-ing to watch King Kong but when our side all decided to go yesterday, he cannot make it as is his sister's birdday.. blow again.

Today, receive sms from mushroom that ah bao is looking for me and wanna jio for King Kong again?? But hor, then realise that mushroom's dear quietly go and book ticket to watch with her tonight le.. really don like the feeling of disturbing people's pat-tall thus blown again lor.. as I enjoy large group, don really wanna watch alone with ah bao thus only can say sorry to disappoint him lo.. my skin just not thick enough.. haa..

Hope tomorrow will be a better day as me going for a free make-over leh. Hopefully can see myself turns out nice nice in a photo even possibility is not high. he hee..

-^o^-

Bee scribbled @ 1:47 PM

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Friday, December 23, 2005

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Think is due to that invisible 乌云 still have not leave me lor.. this year's christmas party not tat merry for me. Think I need to learnt to be more self-fish and stop helping people when only open their mouth to order me around then take me for granted. Felt I'm being forced to carrying a 黑锅 and need to 哑巴吃黄莲.

First wanna say sorry if U happens to be at this site through any method & know U R the one I'm going to complaint. I'm very 小气 de and I need to 发泄.

I'm just follow instruction of wat U wish to order then Y blame me for not ordering enough? When boss is complaining, Y U never even express that U actually know wat is going to be ordered and bear a bit of the blame but simply only express that U also find tat it is not enough?? Still can go around telling other that boot is unhappy with me for not ordering enough!!

I'm really ANGRY & unhappy!!

By right, I can simply sit back & relax like the rest one. Y spoilt my own mode? Maybe U can blame me for letting tat 4 temp staff to join us... How to reject if other already open their mouth and ask if they can join us? Find the main cause is that 8 comfort people who came to join us last minute. Blame me for not knowing how to estimate bah, never thought of incressing the quantity when knowing they joining..

U leh? U ever though about it ma? U R the organiser & can say U R busy enough, but I'm just not used to do hosting de. At least, share the good & bad together, I'll feel more balanced.

Haizz.. anyway, this party is really a boring and unhappy one for me.

Now, change topic to something happy. Is the 战利品s I got this year.

Prepared and gave out a total of 15 gifts and got back 10/11 ba (known from pei pei that she passed gift to DK but he haven give me yet). Among those I got on hand, got myself a 排行榜 of who's won my heart the most. 1st goes to DBA's 香喷喷 burner set with super nice Lily smell; U really know wat I like. 2nd goes to mushroom & gy with the pretty forever friend gift box/pretty butterfly bookmark; love it. 3rd is the wooden 口哨 from beemuu; very unique & sound crispy. (both beemuu & DBA came to ah huat to meet us & we chat for > 1.5 hours. this session is sure nicer then that stupid party lor)

Oh ya, got something from HC. Think she only give me nia wo. At first very happy as I seem to mean something to her. Now donno lo? it is a notepad with a bookmark. Actually it is ok de & I'll still feel happy as is the thought that count; but is the wording on them that make me wounder if she try to sent any message to me or simply harmless:

Bookmark - "U never know how much U can do until U try",

Notepad - "U can do it... If U put your mind to it."

I lost my 判断能力 le. If she meant wat she gave, it means I really score low in her heart & she want me to work real hearder.. Actually can also decoded as she trying to motivate me de... don dare to think about it le. scary..

Feel tat I need some happy happy events to 冲喜。冲喜。 I need more happyness else will lost my original self de..

Bee scribbled @ 9:41 PM

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

~ 乌云当头？ ~

Got the feeling that a invisible big black cloud is above my head today wo. I 闯祸 again. YES!! is me again. Think boots also wanna vommit blood le.

ha haa..

First, need to clear out all the servers from my CCC's computer room (defuncted le) out so that they can arrange ga-lao-guu-ni to collect. Altogether 31 CPUs & 6 monitors. Another koo-lee task tat need to sweat again. Got mushroom & keli to help. Actually that is nothing as we can talk & laugh.. until, I accidently pulled a network wire.

It is a donno wat fiber-wire that links 3rd floor people to 4th floor network. AND it actually 宣告阵亡 even after we plug it back. There goes again. Me in trouble again and this time if need to re-lay that wire, it will cost the company a big big bomb de... :(

While derrick helping to trouble-shoot halfway, got call from big boss that need to meet me & DBA2 to talk about the system down day. spent quite some time to make her understand wat is the full story of the cause & actions did. Was preparing to get scolding le but heng she did not. only need more procedure to be in place.

When the session ends, derrick confirm that the wire gone case le thus have to break the bad news to big boot lor. Thinks she haven't got the chance to sit down yet lor.. when she ask Y tat wire will spoilt? no choice but to own up and prepare to get a big scolding le. but to my supprise, she did not scold wo. Wounder if her heart is shaking-head to employe me or not..

he hee..

Really count myself lucky this time lor as we just need to shift few PC up for them to work at 4th floor instead of 3rd.

I think I really 前途茫茫 le. ha ha haa..

Bee scribbled @ 8:40 PM

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

~ I'm Sick ~

This is the 2nd day le. Two continuous sleepless night with gastric uncomfort. Keep waking up and wanna vommit but nothing came out de. Like having morning sickness.. ha haa..

Woke up in morning with giddy and super head pain. N0 choice I declare expensive NPL again lor.

Few days never water beemuu2 le and hope she hang on there for me.

oh ya, heard that a lots of people got food poison after our year-end-party and some even go hospital wo. Lucky I'm ok. My gastic only start on sunday's night thus not likely to cause by that de.

Maybe they eat too much un-cook food le ba. Because we never touch those thus think that is why me, mushroom & gy are all ok.

Bee scribbled @ 2:59 PM

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Saturday, December 17, 2005

I consider myself quite lucky today.

First, while I'm preparing to go for my company's year-end-party; receive a call from donno where saying I join a contest 4 mths ago and win a make-over session. Cannot remember when I join le but they say is win thru one of the major shopping center de. Anyway, since free one, it is ok lar. he hee... wounder they are able to make me look nice nice or not wo.. 高难度 hor.. ;D

Then is the year-end-party at SAF Yacht Club, the door gift is a keyboard-cum-mouse cleaner and I won myself the 25th prize. It is $60 voucher from Isetan. Can go free shopping lo. Every year's year-end-party through out my working life I get nothing one, this is the first round thus super happy wo.

-^o^-

Talking about the party, nothing great la. Felt boring in many minutes but there are also some quite fun program that make us laugh.. Food is so so only. At first only 3 of us (mushroom, gy & me) in one table like ah gong then like whole world hate us n don wan to come near. Then came a group of comfort's CCC people & the number keep growing from 2 till the whole table feel packed. No like. End up, 3 of us migrate to outside the 帐篷 where we do the makan with derrick.

Felt happy at first and thought we found a nice place that make us feel so comfortable but who know, after food, a lots of smoker starts to gather around us and start drinking and smoking NON-STOP.. ;( End up we like breathing polluted air throughout the session.

Till now I still seem to be able to smell that smoke.

-~_~"-

Bee scribbled @ 11:37 PM

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Friday, December 16, 2005

~ 逃工记 II ~

The feeling of both boots is not around is so shiok. No stress, no worries; doing thing at own time, own target. Suddenly the whole mood and pace of working slow down to the slowest. Today will be the last day of 'holiday' as big boot coming next monday le.

Like Wed, we again had a super long lunch yesterday and went back office at nearly 3pm again. Actually went shopping at J8 after eating. 吃蛇的人 includes keli, mushroom, gy & me. We 超大胆 hor. Originally, we decided to leave office earlier at 5pm after doing the backup but I end up having to do some troubleshotting thus only manage to leave early by 10 min.

Today, we quite good girl & boy at lunch time as all back by 1:30 liao. The office is so quiet after 2 plus to 3 with some not in and some MIAs .. I have to stay till 5 as need to do backup la. At first was thinking 30 min better then nothing. Who know I so 咸菜命...

After the backups is done, I already say Goodbye to Alice & meihua and shutdown ready to go le. While I turn round to take my bag from drawer, 2 figures appear in the super quiet office... it is HR's Vv & Al!!!!

Got the shock out of my hell!! 快手快脚 I quickly close back my drawer and on back my pc to act good girl. almost faint, if I hand-leg fast enough, C-ga-li will meet them at the lift then gone case liao. ;D

When Vv found so many missing head, she come and ask me "how come all the around?".. hehe.. she then kana 敷衍 by me with :"some go comfort, some on leave, some on mc lor" ha haa haa... think she take it ba.

Even 老天 also wanna stop me from breaking the rules.. Both of them was around till 5:30 sharp and there goes my plan. Through out my so many years of working life, first time wanna do something tat is so 'naughty' but fail just like this..

wat a waste. ha ha haa..

Bee scribbled @ 7:21 PM

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Wednesday, December 14, 2005

~ 逃工记 ~

As I still have not sleep enough and there is no boots today, originally decided to run-away-from-office today. but hor I no dare and later went back to office in the end. Ha ha haa... I scary-cat lah.

While I was sleeping very song-ly, receive a sms from big boot @ 9am to ask about FMS related status. Suddendly all the sleepy-ness went off immediately when I saw her name reflected on the phone. Think come think go, still decided to get up and go back office in case there is really FMS's left-over-problem & nobody to handle AND la-gi afraid boots will call me and scold for dare-ing to go on leave while I'm the cause of the whole thing.

he hee... only manage to run-away-from-work for 1.5 hour nia... better then nothing lor. at least got to sleep longer..

Once I reach office, there is a bad news waiting for me!!! Sad!!!! Keli is leaving as she got better offer and her new pay seem very good wo... happy for her but when think of we are going to be short-handed again, scary.. afraid cannot cope and then boot got chance to complain I not hard working or like helpdesk job more then her given tasks again.. 小气 me still cannot forget how she accuse me...

At lunch time, guess where we lunch? me, mushroom, keli & gy went all the way to Novena wo. hehe.. so dare hor, we went for a very long lunch and whent back to office at nearly 3pm.

Hope tomorrow will be another nice & smooth day as again there is still no boot at all.

-^o^-

Bee scribbled @ 9:08 PM

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Tuesday, December 13, 2005

~ 一步错，全盘错 ~

Yeaterday is my super unlucky day. Early early in the morning, felt that I long time never check server's harddisk space le thus decided to do my part.... then found a path in FMS server is 99% used le and I afraid it will hard-disk-full. Find that there is nothing I can remove or compress except few xxxredo.log files. 自作聪明, decided to do a compress some of those 'log file' and that put a start to my bad day.

Nearly 2 hours after I did that, around 11:45, calls start to come in as application failied le. After hinting DBA2 that I touched some files in the morning, it is concluded that I'm the cause and it actually 'kill' the whole database and need to restore back from tape.

Did the recover action for quite a number of time & with different backup copies but all not able to get the database up. DBA2 seem to have some technical problem and I'm not able to help her at all. As each restore session took super long time, these activities continue all the way from 11plus yesterday till today's 8plus. After getting help from Oracle experts, then we realise that the very first restore should actually work already. Wasted all the effort lor. Not sure where when wrong previously as too sleepy to ask chim chim question.

Actually worked for 27hours and keep doze-ing off in between during those waiting time. Tired although I only help up to do things like file cleaning & transfering and omni related task. Feel tat I'm going to die of guilt as 1 stupid mistake cause DBA & HC having to work overnight for me. DBA2 to do recover job & HC to commuicate to boot/CEO. After leading user to fill up possible lost data, only manage to leave office @ 11am.

And this thing is so super big issue as it cause user not able to handle all transaction, company not able to collect rents for 3 days thus losting big lumb sum of bank interest and drivers not able to get any refund for 3 days... CEO and I think all HOD is alerted too!! Wounder if boot will tell them the real cause or not? Will CEO black list me? Will big boot scold me up-side-down when she back from tour?

afraid & guilty

Bee scribbled @ 1:05 PM

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Saturday, December 10, 2005

~ 超级挥霍天！~

As going to get AWS next week le thus decided to bring my mom, sis & 4 monkeys (nephiew, nieces,my god brother) to Suntac. The way we spend today was like a super wealty family wo. Eat & buy without checking price for most of the things. Super 'song' but when I gather all my bills just now, my heart was like dripping blood.. I spended nearly $700 today wo. Almost half of my AWS is gone le. Scary..

How I spend? Cannot believe it. Here is the details.

First, went to The Met Shop where I spend my $100 voucher. My mom also don like the things there and the thing there are really expensive tat can only get 3 items. A box of Correspondene Cards that cost $49.90 ( reach home then realise 25piece of paper & 25 enverlop nia), 2 x 2006 calendar planner that is $25.90 each and quite style-lo. The whole shop like only this 2 type if item I like & effortable nia. Really feel they don worth that kind of price lor. Those who spend there must be all living in big landed house one. AND they really got buyer wo. saw 2 buyer wrapping their thing up to be a gift...

After that, brought a cheap cheap $10 watch for myself as forgotten to bring my watch today, a multi-purpose mini-compo for my mom, a lots of foods & grocery, toys for 3 big monkeys, my 2nd 1G Thumb drive (一时冲动), LillianToo's xuan ming book, calander, printer's inks, few set of nice nice name stickers for myself & monkeys, cab fees, etc....

Actually hor except the compo, printer inks & thumb drive; all the other items are only few dollors to less then $20 nia and all consider cheap cheap de... who know when they add up, it snow-ball to such a big amount wo. Just Car-Full alone took me over $300 leh???

恐怖！ ;p

Bee scribbled @ 11:07 PM

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Friday, December 09, 2005

Don know if I'm considered as unlucky today or not but I think I still quite ok ba. only receive more irritating calls and a bit hungry B4 lunch.. But hor think today is surely not the right day for DBA2 & Netsphere people ba..

Just before lunch, receive calls that stupid Web FMS got problem again and that starts DBA2's battle with the servers. Thinks she got quite a bit of problem to get the whole thing up as no one know where got problem but I'm too little to help up except handle-ing the users's call nia. Even Alice & Netsphere's yu fei help to give ideas of wat to check & possible ways but still fails..

Ends up, Alice & myself only got to go makan @ 1 plus while poor DBA2 still dealing with her mission-quite-impossible. Think she did not have a proper lunch today... till I knock off, the problem is still unsolved thus donno she have to work till wat time wo..

Almost faint of hunger we took a cab from office to a ko-pi shop that is quite near nia and the meter only manage to jump for 10 cents wo. ha ha haa..

Waiting for us @ ko-pi shop are mushroom & her dear, keli & JO who come to lunch with us as she on leave. So nice hor but very pai say as they actually waited for me to reach & eat together. So happy..

Another group of people that is consider unlucky are those Netsphere people. They like ka-na seck wo. Their project was called to terminate immediatly and have to leave our office almost immediately leh. Was so shock to hear the news as their projects was there for 3 years le. And no wounder big boots suddendly go and lock IT lab's door and later need to search for the key. Knowing the way our boots do things sometime, still don know who's fault cause it but its finals le and we will never see li rong & ah hao any more le. Think need some time then can collect more info on this but will all be single sided story nia lor.

Bee scribbled @ 7:49 PM

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Monday, December 05, 2005

Today is really a super super boring day where have to do UAT the whole day with a man beside me almost 90% of my whole working hours. Feel XIAN and lifeless!!! Still got so many report awaiting for me to complete for her still make me do this kind of time wasting task. Think they just wanna continue to eat my time till suddenly wanted to roll live then blame me for not hard working enough!! Stupid!!!

4 days le and 小气鱼 still cannot forget those lines she used to 冤枉 me. Will think of 'them' whenever my mind starts to rest or have peace and it is getting clearer and clearer instead of fad-ing off.. Feel there is no need to work so hard as they don appreciate at all and they all blind de. Don know wat are their eyes is for.. Feel kind of angry whenever hear her voice or see her now.. How to continue? Sort of a bit 悲天悯人 hor but I just cannot help it la.

I'm so unhappy... and... frighten that i will jump from one 火坑 to another la-gi worst 火坑...

How?

think if Jo is here, she will say in hokkien : "别哭别哭，你爸还没死。" ha ha haa..

Bee scribbled @ 8:48 PM

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Saturday, December 03, 2005

~ Makan Day ~

The long awaiting 3rd Dec is here. This is the day tat going to meet some friends for makan & play.

Wake up @ 10am, long time never wake up so earily during a weekends le. he hee..

no choice la as some of the gang need to leave early. My gastric was still feeling very uncomfortable and got a feeling of not going but when think tat so hard that get all of them together, just go la. Don care le. die, die lor. ha haa..

Step out of my house @ 11am sharp and starts receiving news that almost all parties will be late or not meeting me @ MRT le!! Felt so frighten as I 山龟 Bee only knows to meet @ Dou-Be-God MRT and don know the way to the restaurant tat we suppose to meet wo... With my heart Up & down, finally reach and heng DBA are-ga are-ga told me how to meet them and Jo is reaching soon. he hee.. 有惊无险。

At Tao Restaurant @ Paradiz Centre; our 阵容 includes EA, DBA & her always-so-cool girl girl, Ah Chan, Jo, Mushroom, GY, Beemuu & me. The food there was quite nice wo and we got a bit of catch up and chat till throat a bit pain pain now.. he hee talk too loud le ba. We stay there for around 3 hour leh. So 厉害！Anyway, there is this 侍应生 who R quite lively and maybe try to be friendly ba, but I a bit don like the way he talk leh... anyway, just a stranger nia la..

After that, DBA, EA & Chan went off first while the rest of us proceed to Suntac with me to collect me $100 voucher from that The MET Shop. Seem a lot hor but find nothing to buy leh, those items I like R so expensive tat need to top up a lots. Maybe got bonus le then bring my mom to grep something ba as I find some of the design a bit lao-kock-kock leh.

After which, we meet Lao Wu & Ah Bao there also. My original plans was to go bowling then to ice-ki-bar but all last-minute gone with the wind le. a bit disappointed lor.. We was like walking & walking and cannot decide where to go then when finally reach the bowling area, so crowded tus have to change plans lor.. again, we was like walking & walking to find a place to eat again as old wu & ah bao have not eaten yet. Sort of tired with those woundering-around with my super uncomfortable gastic & back pain wo.

Finally we ended up @ The Cafe Cartel where we got our 2nd round of makan session.. Still feeling bloated thus only ordered a ice-cream & potato wedges. quite nice wo and the sit was so comfortable and the environment was so comfortable that I don feel hot. Nice place actually where I rest my leg and back pain problem. he hee..

There goes another round of eating, chatting & listen to ah bao talking about his jobs. any way, he say he going to be promoted le wo. Hope he succeed. When is my turn? no hope le la, boss think I not hardworking enough leh.. still feel unbalanced when think of wat she said to me. 真没天理!!

Think around 19:30 ba, I already hop on to a cab & on my way home le, first time go out to play and end the session so early wo. My mom & sis was like : "wah, so early come home le ah!!" and I answered "today I 乖 ma.." ha ha haa.. ;D

Bee scribbled @ 9:31 PM

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Friday, December 02, 2005

~ Sick-ko ~

I'm sick again today. Just promise HC yesterday that I take care of my health wo.. she must be scolding me in her heart today. he hee..

Actually my gastric has been feeling uncomfortable for few days le but yeaterday night become worst. Don't know if HC's conversation affecting my immuse system... Whole night wanna vomit & need to LS. Felt my gastric so 'full' tat my stomatch wanna burst le. Cannot sleep the whole night lo.

This morning was tring very heard to wake up but too giddy to do so & have to sleep flat on bed with bloated gastric... really sicko le. the first think tat come into my mine is not geting scolded by boot but is afraid tat I cannot go meet my friends tomorrow. he he heee.. really got no "冲劲" ba. ;D

When to C doctor as really feeling sick but found the original doctor went tour and this stand-in doc so funny wo. I told his my gastric got problem and usually they will press the gastric area but he press my whole tummy. Felt funny & ask him I only got gastric problem why press my whole tummy.. he say "wanna check how is your baby" ???? since when I say I got baby? he say thought my niece is my daughter & my big big tummy is another baby.. faint!!!

When collecting medicen, he la-gi funny, give me few type of medicen of few category (voimit, head pain, gastric one) and want me to choose them myself? where got this kind of doc one? Funny!! if tat clinic is his, sure close down de. ha haa.

Now feel much better le although still got some uncomfortable... i had been sleeping for one full day le.. wounder is able to sleep tonight or not neh.

Bee scribbled @ 8:48 PM

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Thursday, December 01, 2005

Today is the doing of once-a-month monthly report. Busy.. that start my 不平衡的一天。 First, I'm forced to do test for my boss just because she going to on leave tomorrow and they need to hit stupid time-line then kana 骗 to do AOP after office hour.. ;D

While I busying with my monthly report, HC came to me and ask a very xian question : "你今天的时间怎么样 har?" Told her need quite sometime for my monthly report then those WEB report lor. Guess wat she say? She give remark that "Y U put all this to last minutes?", very buay song, told her "你看我哪里有空？" she just throw a very powerful line : "U have to manage your time la. Anyway, I want U to do testing for me as I cannot finish it on time le..." faint!! My job again. already told U I not free, still die die push your task over!!

bo bian lor, U R my boss I have to listen to U..

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Finally finish all those testing & reports by the end of the day, 17:20 le. And found GY is in her room doing his AOP, was still hoping that he don come out B4 17:30 so tat I can go on time... he came out @ 1725.. and my phone ring! is her!!! but she mention nothing of AOP but say: "B4 U go, pass me your laptop as i need it hor". Though this time she so good wor... but once I gave her tat and prepare to walk out, she ask again : "你的时间怎么样 har?" , told her I wanna go home le. She then say " Can I do your AOP with U?", told her "can do on monday or not since CCY not finish with the rest also wa, I pack finish le leh"... but hor that stupid bad women then say "boss want it by today and pls just give me 5 to 10 min to run through your AOP."

Xian la.. say NO already still force!! TMD!! Y every year I need to do AOP after office hour de!!!! was cursing & scolding in my heart.. but bo bian again lor..

When through that piece os AOP form and found I hit all her 'aim' or 'target performance needs' but hor kana C-ed. Think so far this 3 year, never hear anyone say they give higher then that. Maybe only to themselves get it ba. So stingy!! cannot understand how they mark our paper de. though can go le after signing it but she still talk non stop. So super lo-so & buay zi dong leh. cannot stand her.. I WANT TO GO HOME LAH!!!

Cannot remember the details le but say those bo liao thing like got problem must come in to say, must ask a lots of questions, must feed her with every single detail of project and don wait for her to chase for it, must communicate more with CCY also, will give more task next year, IT line don expect to go home & lunch on time, better management on my time and know how to 'piority' tasks and say NO to requests, don affect by those who leave etc..

Among all those topics, got one I very buay song de : "我发现你这一年来少了一股冲劲" and "U like to look after your time very often now a day". Got a shock when she say this. I ask her "wat make U feel this way? Since day one I monitor my knock off time one but got important thing to do then will stay back ma." she say "no, last time U very hard working one and will stay back to finish up your things" ??? VERY BUAY SONG; told her straight that "if got last minute and important thing, I'm willing to stay de & I'm doing tat wah; but if U want me to stay back everyday like U and do those never-ending thing, I'm not to it"..

I actually regret saying the word "like her" as tat lead her to say long story she do this because she got the "冲劲" to try to finish her project and hit time line for CCY to see... feel like ask her wat will I get If I have the same kind of "冲劲"... anyway I don think she meet her time-line lor... haiz... "also asked "is there anything I refuse to do for U that make U think I no longer hard working?" she say I recently produce my thing very slowly le!!! Alamak!! really have to clear my name this time!!!!!

I told her I seldom got time to eat-snake de wa and every day will sure busy once I step into office till knock off de (although I sometime spend a bit bit of time to play w mushroom;p). Last time can make it is I'm doing those thing FULL-TIME and now? The slowe-less is all caused by those rubbish task that they pass to me wah. She say she can see that and agreeded with that but still throw out this line : "U have to manage your time and pass out your task to Ke Li when U got problem." She think I like her, busy then push her task out to me. Ke Li stil new wa, how to do that? any way, I'm Keli's work mate not her boss.. Since U got eye to see, Y still complaint?

Then, she say something that I really wanna faint!! She say "我觉得你喜欢 helpdesk tasks 多过我给你的。。every time push her task to the last" !!! Told her if they willing to give instruction to free me from helpdesk, I la-gi happy. I hate my phone ring de. She did not reply but just smile... Wat kind of feedback is that? want me to take the job but see me do still wanna 'eye-red'...

Anyway, she also mention that "everybody in IT need to multi-task, U can never see one with single task after another de. U can put your project in higher pirority then when u hanged with some problem then go to your helpdesk task..." Is that true that all are multi tasked?? don know but I tell her straight that I'm not able to and sure ends up with all un-done de. How to keep those helpdesk task till my project finish/hanged then look into them? Users can wait ma?

Wat is the point of AOP when U want us to talk, we say le, U just block every single statement off & never want to absorb...

Useless la and waste my time nia.... that it took me in that room for 1hr 10min instead of the promised 5 to 10 min. :(

Y I so 苦命？ Everyday work like a cow still get response that I not hardworking enough!! Unfair!! Must everyday stay till midnight and come back on weekend then is consider as hardworking ma? Stupid la.

Bee scribbled @ 9:42 PM

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